Tuesday 26 January 2010

Just popping in

Well its very queer reading my blog up till now. Its not at all as I'd intended it to be. I wanted it to be about the kinds of things I do to withdraw from consumerism, but its just been a big ol' whinge about nothing in particular as far as I can see.

I have to say, (here I go again), things have been bad lately. No, I really mean it this time. And I won't even mention any of my health complaints that have popped up as a result of all this stress.

1. I've been the subject of a workplace bully and as a result have been signed off sick from work. Damn, I tried!! I had to find a new job from the soul-less one I had before and found an even worse place.

2. My husband (aged 41) had a heart attack just over a week ago. He's out of hospital and doing really well, but that was a huge shock for me and I was useless whilst he was in danger.

As a result, my employers appear to be sticking up for my bully, who is the most manipulative person I've ever met. We'll see on that when I get my hearing for my grievance. But I'm not going to go on about that too much because its got to the stage where that's not really important.

I've just totally lost any will to be a slave to this god awful system any more. I feel like something's snapped in my head and I can't work any more. I just don't have the attention span or the same kind of cognitive ability. Things like I miss the ends of words when I speak, which is really SO unlike me as I'm very particular with the English language. Its a bit like something's short-circuited. Its very weird - I've never had anything like this before. I feel a few sandwiches short, if you know what I mean?

My husband will freak if he reads this as he thinks I need to be in full-time employment so we can have more money, but in all honesty I think we can manage on his wage any any little bits I manage to get together but I just need to convince him of that. If I'm running the home on a frugal framework, I've no doubt we'd thrive.

And no, we've not got any kids yet. The money is still the reason. I figure it always will be.

But at least I made some lovely bread last night, and I must make some more tomorrow cos its nearly all gone. The chickens are laying eggs are a rate of knots and we're going to have to put a sign up and sell them. We've got about 2 dozen I reckon!